New Beginnings

On October 24th Husband and I welcomed our little cub into the world. I must say that it's an amazing feeling to be a mom. It's definitely one of those feelings that no one can explain. After waiting over a year to get pregnant, then finally learning we were pregnant, it feels amazing to have our son home with us. It has definitely been challenging though. I didn't know I could be so exhausted and emotional. Late night early morning feedings are definitely the worst. I can't wait until he is sleeping through the night. It's also been challenging trying to breastfeed. I must admit I was very arrogant concerning breastfeeding. People continuously asked me if I had taken any nursing classes and my thought was why on earth would I take classes to do something that women have done for ages without any class or instruction. In my opinion it should just come naturally. I'm fast learning that the most natural and simple things can easily be made difficult. Breastfeeding has been a journey, one of which I am still conquering. I'm sure there will be a blog dedicated to this journey soon.

There are great things about this new beginning. I feel as if my heart expands everyday. Each time I think I have reached the limits of my capability to love, I awaken to my son's face and find that my love has grown so much more. I'm truly learning that love is limitless. Prior to the birth of my son, or "cub" as I adoringly call him, I thought I understood the concept of unconditional love. I've always felt that I loved my husband, mother, father, and family  unconditionally. Now, I find myself realizing that unconditional love is more powerful than loving someone despite their flaws and misdeeds. How do you define or explain loving someone that has never spoken a word to you and never done anything for you? I realized that I loved this little person for no reason other than he exists. I love him just because. This level of love has really changed me; I have a greater understanding of my relationship with God. I understand how He views me and how He loves me. It's amazing how much you change from the onset of baby.  I eagerly look forward to the amazing lessons and adventures ahead. I'm sure I will learn so much about myself....this is only the beginning.